When the world ends, there will be ashes, cockroaches, and me, a teenager writes in her diary. Cockroach is a memoir. Cockroach is a tale of survival. Cockroach is a creature fundamentally changed by experiences of bullying which hone hair-trigger sensitivities and maladaptive instincts. Cockroach looks back on formative moments of socialisation and instances of missed communication via the lens of learning about neurodivergence; pinpointing turning points and celebrating a lifelong fascination with the 'other' in fiction as well as the self. If you are 'other', who are your role models? Where do you find solace and belonging? Using examples from horror cinema interwoven through poetry and prose tackling disability and loneliness, Cockroach maps a life.